you can over think it. there is a such thing as being too cautious and never figuring out how to really live…
i read through our old emails today. our relationship used to be soooo awesome. now. it’s just bleh. i think so many thoughts and never say them to you. and i should, but i don’t know how you’ll take it all. or if it even matters.
from those emails i felt like you cared what i thought. but now… i feel like you just want me to be a memory. nothing in the present. far from the future. just a moment in time… in the past. someone that was. that used to be.
but i’ll probably read those emails again. just to remind myself that at one time, you felt differently….
real.pretend.